Lara’s Book
For people who know me it comes as no surprise when I say that I am an emotion driven individual. Because of this I knew that when the time came to share everything I had found with my children it would be taxing on my emotions. My family and pretty much anyone who would listen heard about my search and my need to know my first born. I did not want to miss anything nor did I want to hide my feelings. The result was I put together this book and shared it with my family. When you read it, if you do, be amazed at what little 44 years of searching and 9 years of life has given us. It shouldn’t be that way for anyone. I know in today’s society there is much more support for those who , at the onset, saw no future for their child and there is inclusion for those who simply couldn’t manage to raise a child on their own. For whatever reason, the child is still theirs by nature and the loss of that child will be with them for life. Everyone has a story and no-one should be judged on their decisions. More often than not the decision was made for them. When a birthparent searches they know there is no stepping back in time but there is always a future. We only wish to share that future with their childs adoptive family and to know what joys, heartbreaks and accomplishments shaped their lives. When I was told that Lara was raised a Lee and would always be a Lee, I agree. She was born of love however, became a Lee because of decisions made for us and she has been missed every single day since the hour of her birth. We always thought that if one is proud of their child then you would want to share your pride. We were wrong.
I am pleased to share my book with you. Once it loads you can view it full screen by clicking on the 4 arrow icon in the bottom bar. It is a flip book so just drag the pages back and forth. If for some reason you wished to purchase it (not my reason for posting) you can do that too.
Feel free to email me. I will eventually return to helping others in their searches and now that I know what it is like to not have a happy ending I can perhaps share that with others as well.
